Friday, January 1, 2010

What I Learned in 2009


2009 was a really hard year! I was very happy to say good bye to the year. I know our January is going to have some residue from 2009 but, I do know it is residue and 2010 is going to be brighter!

In 2009, I learned what loss really is. I lost my father mid June. I learned that each day I would go on with the peace he is no longer suffering but the heartache he is no longer with us. I learned that no matter how many self help books one may read, it doesn't mean they are actually taking in the changes needed. I learned that even though someone may not have reacted the way you hoped they would, doesn't mean they do not love you. I continued to learn what friendship really is and I learned what friendship is not. I learned how to crochet, knot jewelry and embroider several different stitches. I learned patients, I learned to love more. I learned about loss on many different levels. I learned what extreme levels of stress are. I learned what I don't like and what I don't want to be. I learned to be humble. I learned to appreciate each moment more. I learned to chant for my inner strength. I learned a lot about sadness. I learned a lot in 2009. Im looking forward to healing more and growing more in 2010. Im looking for change. Im looking for hope. Im looking forward to the new year!!