Barbie Vs. Brats

Ava's really into playing hair salon these days. She blew me away the other day, I was running around cleaning doing my usual play for a minute, put stuff away, grab a snack, talk to Ava business. I walked out of what we call our "cabin" and walked back in and Ava put piggy tales in her hair! it was so cute! Two low pigtails. Shes always asking for rubber bands and clips and does the cutest stuff with her hair. I had no idea I would be passing up the hair brush so young in her life.
So let me back track. A while back a lot of the older girls that graduated from Ava's preschool were in that Bratz movie. Yes, the hippie granola preschool that's anti media, yet most of their parents make their living in media. Ahem.....so these girls that Ava idolizes were telling her that they were in this movie. So Ava wanted to see it. I had to tell her no and let her know that we don't play with Bratz dolls either. Ava being Ava did not like hearing there was a toy that she couldn't play with and I can't blame her. I understand that. So I had to get creative and explain to her what the word Brat means and how these dolls are made to look like stripper whores without having to tell her those words exactly.
Ok, so we were at Target and Im such a sucker and I always want to buy her things and I remember how they have those doll heads to style their hair. So we ran over to the doll area and the barbie head happen to be the Mariposa edition. I was so excited because Ava has the book and its in spanish (exciting for a mexican girl to see a barbie doing some spanish) and I said here and Ava said "Ugh (with that questioning Ava face) do you really want me playing with a doll that looks like this? So for a moment, she was the adult and I was the little girl. I said what, you don't want this and she grabbed it and said I do! So I looked around didn't see any other head options other than the bratz version thats an entire torso and if you could imagine, way worse, I noticed, she does look like a stripper whore too! But at this point, I wasn't going to take it away from her.
So this played over and over in my head. Ava needing to remind me I was the one who said she couldn't play with dolls that looked like grown women. It bothered me so much I took a trip to walk down stripper bratz aisle and do see that barbie isn't nearly as trashy but she's still pretty inappropriate for a four year old to be playing with. Some are worse than others but just because she's blonde and white........she can still whore it up! Have you seen the Top Model barbies? Slutty for sure but they do look kind of fun to play with if you are a grown perverted man! :)

And back down

ugh.....I hate this roller coaster. my dad's doing poor again therefore, I'm feeling bad again and upset that I got hopeful. Ava was really stressed by my dad's health so I kept telling her how great Papa was like a freaking cheerleader. My hopes were up so I got her hopes up and now I feel really guilty about that too. I'm tired of feeling this way. My poor Dad.

Happy Birthday Ruby Lu

Ruby turned one on February 17th. We can't believe what a quick beautiful year it was. Ruby entered our world a year ago and now we cant remember life without her. Ruby has the most playful personality. Since birth Ruby has made her needs very clear. She also has always saved her biggest smiles and coo's for Ava. Ruby is adventurous, loving, and fun. She loves people, she will accept love from anyone! She also has a love for holding something in both hands. Often when we put her to sleep, we have to pry a little something out of her hands. Usually its some small choking hazard she never should have had in the first place. Ruby loves hanging out with her sister and her sisters friends. She can't wait to do what everyone else is doing. She crawl walks and has been doing that for months. She takes one step with her foot flat on the floor and drags the other knee forward like a crawl. She loooooves shoes and associates them with walking. For a while, she was sleeping with shoes on. If you take your shoes off around her, she will put them on for sure! She often wears Ava's and has put mommy's and daddy's on too. She loves dancing and food. Everything her sister does, she wants to do it too. This little girl is amazing. She's more than a Ruby! This little being is my heart melted all over the world. Thank you for letting me be your mommy! Happy Birthday love!!!

It's a good day

Yesterday was Ruby's birthday. I'm going to blog about that when I get a picture from it. (I momentarily lost my camera.) Her Party went fantastic. We kept is very simple and small. As small as my family can be anyway. ;) I was pretty certain I was going to cancel her party all week long. I figured it was the one year I could really get away with doing nothing. I wanted to do nothing because of my dad's health and because of his health, I have been very depressed.
My Dad's health fell very poor. I really thought he had no more miracles left. We all did. About a week and a half ago, I got a call from my mom saying my dad was leaving their home in an ambulance. He was hemorrhaging. He threw up blood and coughed up blood the next day. Over the next week, he lost even more blood. He had to have several transfusions. After a few days, his mind went. He was in and out of sleep but had no idea where he was. He saw people in the room. A man named Chad and a small boy. There was no one in the room. My Dad wanted to leave for several reasons. He thought he was well and he was begging us to get him out of bed. He felt stuck and wanted to move. He couldn't move and that made him really upset. After a while he had to be restrained. On Thursday his blood pressure dropped to 56/31. The whole time he was awake. We, my mother, sister and I were all in a silent panic. I asked him how he felt, wondering if this was it and he said "I feel fine". I thought for sure this was the end.
I saw my Dad in a condition, no one should ever have to see anyone in. After a spell of hallucinations, he asked me to take care of my mom for him. He cried and said he didn't want her alone. I promised him I would. This was all very hard for me. At one point I sat in my feelings and realized, this was the most painful feelings I have ever experienced. No break up or loss has ever compared. My heart felt a hundred pounds heavy.
Last Friday, my Dad's health took a turn. The bleeding stopped (they still, after many test, have no idea why that happened), his mental state was healthy and his vitals were ok again. Late that night he was transfered to a skilled nursing center for rehabilitation. I was worried but happy too.
After some much needed encouragement from a friend and my family, I was reminded how necessary it is to celebrate birthdays, especially the first one. So we had a small party and friends, my dad is doing amazing! I can't believe this miracle! I was at the hospital all day every day and barely saw my girls. I am not very hopeful when it comes to my Dad being sick. I guess I try to stay true, he has a lot of health problems and I guess I prepare myself for the worst. In fact, when his health took a turn for the better, I still stayed on the negative side just in case. Well, its been three days and let me tell you, I am high as kite!
My baby's One, my Dad's alive and I get to hear him on the other end of the phone saying "Hi baby!" when I call him.
I am the happiest woman/mom/daughter today. YAY!!!!!!!

More peeps that are the shit...... :)

Jennifer, Diane and Christy.......fo' shizzle! xoxox

4:08

Very early tomorrow morning, my baby Ruby is turning One. I can't believe it. It's been a whole year since that scary Friday. It's been a fantastic year. My baby is turning one....... :( I'm a little sad about that.

i love photo booth

I got a new laptop and it has a program called photo booth. This enhancement is called Comic. Here's me as a Super Hero Jewelry Designer. ;) Im such a dork and clearly wasnt sober when I took these! I was supposed to be working!